Sunday, November 27, 2011


I had my second Starbucks experience today where Juliana bought me a cup of Starbucks Cappucino because I managed to get her a Starbucks card.

I like the tagline showed as displayed,

"Let's Remember Why we go together so well".

She bought me this as a gift of gratitude. While I was holding this drink to attend Women's Centre for Change Penang (WCC) New Building Fund Raising at Little Penang Street Market, another volunteer was saying that I tempted her with Starbucks.

During the lunch break, I grabbed her a cup of Blended Cream Mocha and she was so happy! She shared the drink with her mum and her brother and we managed to discuss more about her future study plan in psychology. I helped her to clarify about various psychological fields and we exchange opinions about our career path in psychology.

With a cup of Starbucks,

We get to know each other better,
We started a new friendship.

Therefore, I would like to add a small tagline as below,

"It's more than just coffee: Let's just remember why we go together so well"

What say you?


p/s: This post sounds like a free advertisement for Starbucks... =P

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Are you sure you will serve freely?

While waiting for mechanic to complete his service to my motorcycle, I had a inspiring conversation with his sister.

"If I don't have to worry about my living costs, I shall help anyone without any charge," I started our conversation.

"Are you sure? If someone will fully sponsor your food, accommodation and transport, will you really help freely?"

"Yuh, why not? But in life, I am still hunger of knowledge."

"Aren't you saying that you will provide your help freely? Now you sound like you will still hope for money in return of your help because you want the money to exchange for what you want," she confronted.


A simple sentence which caused me to reconsider why do I stay in helping profession since years back.

She was happy that she managed to discover my logical flaw within this simple conversation. I admit for my imperfection, but what fascinated me, is that she helped me to think about my decision, passion and motive in helping.

I believe that I can help others with the skills that I have learned, shared the painful and inspiring experience with others, be prepared to be a active listener, be a committed counselor... However, when looking at what I had done so far, recapitulated this conversation, I began to ask myself again,

"Why do I help?"

I fell to the knees and pray...

Monday, September 12, 2011

Mid Autumn

Celebrating mid autumn festival is meaningful, if there are friends or family around...

Last Saturday, I went to a simple gathering organized by Farlim Adventist Church and Cynn was putting a lot of effort in making this event successful.

Her prayer was answered.. Clear sky and round moon. Not to mention the happy faces among those who presented.

We had wonderful dinner, lantern puzzles (aka 燈謎), lantern lightning and of course, pastor's sharing.

One incidents happened during our effort to hang up those lanterns on raffia ropes. The lanterns were dropping one by one after a period of time because we oversaw the possibility for the ropes to be melted by candle heat. Well, something to learn. =)
Pastor was trying to share about light and he mentioned about how we, Christian reflects God's light throughout our life. I was touched...and actually I wanted to ask,

"Is it possible for me to burn myself to lighten up others?"


"And God said, Let there be light: and there was light. And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness." - Genesis 1:3 ~ 4

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Seoul Garden dinner

First time had a great dinner with colleagues.

Though it was just a simple dinner with them in Seoul Garden, Gurney Plaza, somehow I had different feeling about them.

Someone is constantly worrying about her family...
Someone is having a lot of thing in her mind...
Someone is trying hard to mix outside of office...
Someone is never given up chances to have fun...
Someone is ever ready to serve...

It is actually grateful to have moment with colleagues outside of office setting because you have to chance to observe and feel how they interact when work is not our main topics or concern. Everyone is trying to have dinner and you can tell how enjoy we were by just looking at these photos (especially Yuukie and Josephine).

Besides that, it was from this dinner, we knew our appetite, food intake volume, and diet preference. In fact, I had came to believe that those are skinny tend to eat a lot (well, don't mad at me, that's just my observation over the 24 years...). about the bill?

Erg, how much we need to pay?

Thanks, Nancy. We didn't go Dutch but we went home happily (with super-fully-filled-stomach).

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Wednesday, August 17, 2011


We were glad to invite Footstool Players for drama presentation at Penang Adventist Hospital. This year, they bring SEEDS to us.

The production is consisted of 8 sketches which were based on biblical account of what Jesus taught in parables, Jesus' miraculous actions, Jesus' comforting et cetera. This is their 10th anniversary production but you may surprise why it is "seeds"? Well, according Colin, the artistic director of the group, they remembered those who shared with them how Footstool Players sketch left an impact in their life over these years. Despite not knowing that whether the God's word is fallen on which kind of soils, they hope that God will grow the "seeds" that they shared to their audience, to fruitfulness in everyone's life.

Sounds touching, right? Ya, in fact some of the audience (includes me) were weeping during the performance was on.

Wanna know how touching the stories go? Read on...

1st Skit: The Seed and The Soils
Biblical source: Matthew 13:3-9

This sketch is humanoid description of the Scripture. As one of the actor played as the seed while the other as the farmer or external factors, Christian may found this familiar with what Jesus told about the seeds which fell into various soils. One eaten by bird, one on the rocky ground, one was chocked by the thorns and the last fruitful one. Some people are easily taught by Words, but which soil are you? =)

2nd Skit: The Big Spender
Biblical source: Matthew 18:21-35

Another variation of Jesus' parable of unmerciful servant in term of the story background. No talents and denarii but dollar. They played a modern version of how Jesus answered Peter about forgiveness. One big spender who owed 10 thousand dollars to a loan shark, was forgiven and all his debt were paid by the loan shark after the big spender begged for forgiveness. While the big spender on his way back home, he met his friend who owed him 5 bucks. Unlike what he has treated when he was with the loan shark, he put his friend in the jail until his friend can pay up the debt. If you have read Matthew chapter 18, you know what happened next, right? Forgiveness, it is always easier to say than done. Remember, we are forgiven by our Father and we will suffer if we choose not to forgive.

3rd Skit: The Tah-Pau Lunch
Biblical source: John 6:1-13

5 loaves and 2 fishes can feed 5000? Well, it is a miracle done by Jesus. A gift to share, even though you think that can be small, but sharing can create impact to others. In this skit, a young refused to bring the lunch box prepared by his mother because he wanna tried take-away lunch on his way to school. He complained that the food was not enough for him but his mum told him about how Jesus fed five thousands people with 5 loaves of barley bread and two fishes. After his mum told him about this miracle, the boy was convinced to bring his lunch box to school and eventually he shared his lunch box with a student who hardly have money to have lunch at school. They became good friends! Guess what, we are actually blessed with what is enough for us and maybe more that we can imagine!

4th Skit: The Cracked Pot
Biblical source: 2 Corinthians 4:7-12, 16-18; 1 Corinthians 1:26-29; Romans 8:28; Genesis 50:20

Clay pot is meant to carry water but what is the purpose of cracked pot for it fails its function? This skit may prove you wrong if you think the pot is a failure. Once upon a time, there is one Indian owned 2 clay pots. One was big, strong, firmly build while the other one was small, poorly shaped, cracked. Everyday, the Indian never failed to carry these 2 pots with him whenever he were talking water from a well. Well, one day, the cracked pot began to groan at its owner, saying that it is such a failure compare to its counterpart because everytime the Indian filled it full, only less than half of the water was left, and so it refused to work with its owner. The Indian did not feel upset, instead he brought it along the path they used to walk daily when they are going to take water from the well. The potter demanded the pot to notice around the path as they walk along. The cracked pot was so surprise that there were beautiful flower grew along the path without noticing that the water leaking from its cracked body was watering the flowers all the while! This is the one of the parts where I broke into tears. I recalled my past experience on how terrible I was when sexual abuse, suicidal attempts and irresponsibility flashed back. I was like a cracked pot but God has never fails to use me for His purpose. I am not sure, what I done for the benefit of others, but I was again reminded to fix my eyes on what is unseen for what is seen is temporary but what is unseen is eternal...

5th Skit: The Peasant Princess
Biblical source: (Unknown, probably whole bible on how God is always with us)

Prince of Vendread was looking for life partner ever since he reached the age of marriage. One after another princesses from various country came for him but none of them impressed the prince. One day, he decided to dressed like a peasant that no one actually recognized that he was the prince. He met one peasant girl who sold grilled burger. He was attracted by her and so did her at the first sight. Eventually, they fell in love and gone through what a normal couple will do. Having dinner together, chatting over their story under the starry night... At last, when he proposed to her, he disclosed his identity and the girl was shocked! Without any objection from the royal family, the girl was welcomed into royal world. Happily ever after? Not so much after the marriage because the girl was still used to her previous lifestyle as a princess despite she was a "Your Highness" to everyone now. Without acknowledgement of the prince, she secretly picked up her kitchen utensils, started grilling burger and selling them near the castle. The prince knew nothing about this because he was busy with his work everyday. However, when this old habit of "the prince" was reported as local newspaper headline, "the princess" was so afraid that she kept hiding this fact from her husband. When the prince asked her about this, she thought that the prince must be very angry about her for being not doing what a princess should do. Surprisingly, her royal husband answered, "Honey, I am always in love with you no matter what you do...". "You see, the moment I fell in love with you, I did not mention my identity as a prince but I am truly in love with you because of who you are, Honey!" The princess was touched and she promised to slowly learn to be a proper princess who takes up new responsibility and joyfulness. Jesus is like the prince. He loves you not because of what you have done but simply because who you are!

6th Skit: The Dependable Son
Biblical source: Luke 15:11-32

This skit was about the parable of the lost son as in Luke chapter 15. Another play based exactly like biblical text except the background had switched to 21st century where the sons were no longer in farm but school. A father had two sons. One has left his homeland and one remained with their family. The one who stayed with his father fulfill every responsibility and expectation of his family, but he is never happy of what he had achieved. One day, his younger came home and their father was very happy and celebrated his brother's return. He was mad at his father for not showing appreciation on what he has done. Comparing with his younger brother, he felt like he was not appreciated but his father told him this, "you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found. (Luke 15:31-32)". How many times we had fallen into our own world that we are not aware of our blessing and be joyful for who has returned to our big family?

7th Skit: Lay Down Your Burden
Biblical source: John 4:1-42

Jesus and the Samaritan woman. Drink not the water that can quench your thirst but drink living water which will never let you thirst again. If you have read John chapter 4, you will know well about this story. The woman decided to left her heavy burden (the jar) right after she told others about the Messiah and she never took up the heavy burden again. Have you decided to left everything to Him?

8th Skit: God's Chisel
Biblical source: (Unknown, mostly about our faith with God)

Ming, woke up early in the morning and looked at the mirror. After he was done with his brushing, he did daily prayer and surprisingly God (Colin's role character) appeared with hammer and chisel. Ming prayed for God to chisel him into a better person in the way he wanted. A little bit here and there physically so that he could look nicely in front of others. Instead of responding with his demand, God started to chisel Ming by pinning out his weaknesses and sin. As God was pinning deeper into Ming, Ming started to recline from God and asking God why all these were found in him as he was trying hard to keep these from others. He even doubted God care about him despite he had done so many things wrong but then again, God said this, "Ming, you're always my original master piece and no matter what you have done, you're always my original piece of art where I will make good use of you. I am the Creator of universe and do you think I do not know what is happening on you? All you have to do is to ask yourself, do you want Me to chisel you or you choose to follow your sinful desires," At the end of the skit, God asked Ming again, "Do you dare to proclaim to others that you're my original creation, without the fear of rejection or any response that you will or will not anticipate?". Ming, stood there at the edge of the stage with God around him, declared the bar cans which focused on him, slowly dimmed off...

I cried, as I was hearing some weeping sounds at the audience seats...

From time to time, I admit that I was trying to rely on my own to push myself into what I want. But, who do you think God is? He knows me well that He actually ready a path for me ahead and all He wants was just a total submission to Him...

How far I have done? Only He knows.

Thank you, Father for sending Footstool Players to spread about Your words within Malaysia. Father, I pray that You continue to guide and bless them so that they can continue to bring Gospel to those who haven't known about You. Glorifying all these in Your Son Jesus' precious name, Amen.

"The one who sowed the good seed is the Son of Man." ~ Matthew 13:37

Sunday, August 7, 2011


We visited a shelter home in Bukit Mertajam, Penang Bahnhof Youth Center.

Though there were some delay in planning, we were glad that they were welcoming us as much as we welcomed them.

We did not plan many activities for the children because all we wanted, was to have interactive moment with them. Of course, the discussion about how to deliver our help towards the less fortunate population with Alex and Thoo (center's owner) was inspiring, too.

For those who are in the helping profession or social welfare, I guess we all understand that running a shelter home or half-way house which serves as part of psychosocial support, is not easy. From getting a license for the center to the negotiation with neighbour for tolerance with children's voice level. However, these did not stop Alex to help these kids.

"If I do not help them, who is going to help them?". This remind me of Jesus' parable about the lost sheep. "What do you think? If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, I tell you the truth, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should be lost." (NIV, Matthew 18:12-14).

Though they had or are having some untold experience which you and I may not feel or know, I can feel how creative, happy, serious about their attitude towards their life.

I believed God is blessing Penang Bahnhof Center for those who were grown up in this center is turning into Him and become some great people that touch others' life. One of the former resident turned up to be a sales manager in a local rice merchandise while the other is undergoing formal counseling training to be a licensed counselor.

Isn't that great? Praise the Lord. =)

Want to know what we did with them?

Well, we had a simple brunch with those kids where they were jumping around the compound while foods were ready and electronics seemed to be their focus...

(Psst, none of our cell phones "survived" after the visit, including Alex's Samsung Galaxy Tab because all of the power were drained by games installed in our gadgets...>~< )

Photo frame making session...

30 minutes football game and blanket game....

And I guess you know how happy we were in the end of the day...

It is really fun to mix around with them and I will continue to pray for everyone in the center.

P/S: Thank you everyone for making this visit successful ^^

"When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd." ~ Matthew 9:36

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Cast my burden on Thy, for You know where I shall go...

While waiting for my sister, I managed to think about my current job and career development...

I recalled the moment I was struck by hopelessness and depression when my manager delivered the first warning letter to me few weeks back...

How slack I was....
How useless I was...
How stubborn I was...
How egocentric I was...


I rethink again what did that incident mean for me,
reviewed one of the case that I handled recently,
referred the policy of my job title,
and I saw this,

”A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” (Proverbs 16:9)

I think that there is a purpose why God put me in this job at this hospital and begin to realize that I can perform better by applying what I have learned in the university.

All the while,

I was thinking that my degree has little and nothing to do with my current job, for I am a social worker but I am graduated in counseling. All I have to do in this job, is only to disburse the charity fund to the patient. With this mindset persists, I am unable to integrate my knowledge into my practice. However, when I was reviewing one of the cases on my hand, I began to have some ideas on how to process it from different perspective which I haven't applied since I started this job.

  • If the cardiologist remarked anxiety/depression on the diagnosis page, why didn't I assessed her for the past interview session?
  • Why didn't I applied my Mental Status Examination (MSE) skills on her when home visit was conducted?
  • How can I integrate MSE into our first interview or our interviewing approach with charity patients?
  • Why can't I arrange for consultation with Dr Lynn about case management or referral when the manager is unable to discuss for case management in the perspective of patient's psychological functioning?
  • Why am I saying that I cannot apply my skills when there is actually a chance to reform the process of case management in medical social service?

With these question roaming around my mind, I think again,

Counseling is part of case management or the process of psychosocial support for patients, but I am given the chance to learn how to manage a case from the beginning (in fact prior to first contact with charity patients) until the end of holistic psychosocial support (usually follow up to ensure patient's overall functioning) in clinical setting.     

  • Isn't I fortunate to have this learning opportunity when I keep mentioning that my career path is into clinical psychology?
  • Isn't this one of the way that our Heavenly Father form and build me?
I don't know who I can be in future, but I am willing to come back to Him again...

For He knows what is the best for me and lightens my path...

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths.” ~Proverbs 3:5

Sunday, July 31, 2011


Had paintball session with church mates on 31st July, 2011. Phew, I thought it was a easy game but it was quite demanding in terms of stamina because you need to squat, run, shoot, hide, and crawl...

Anyway, this remind me of our moment with Half Life: Counter Strike. Well, real life sports is far better and excited than computer game. You get to feel the tension in shooting and hiding where you cannot feel in virtual reality.

Get set, solders!

With the effort of Juliana (thanks Juliana for organizing this game! =D), we managed to have a discount session of RM20 per person with unlimited life and 100 bullets. We started the game in 2 teams, aka white vs yellow.

Being hit by air gun is not that pain compare to gunpowder bullet and the impact can cause damage level as this...

...and only one of us were not hit directly... No casualty occurred but wounded legs, arms, heads, face....

Despite my team has won, but I found that the excitement of winning can only be achieved if limited life is set for each player. If everyone is getting unlimited life but limited bullets, for sure the team who plays safe and stingy on bullets will win the game most probably.

Anyhow, it is a very excited game and we had nice time together. Probably I will go for next round in near future.. =D

Saturday, July 30, 2011

Walk for Sight and Sound 2011

Went to a fantastic charity walk during 17th July and met some wonderful friends who are working under the same hood.

Ops, not ready yet?

Smile! (^ω^)

I am not sure what the Star reported about the figures is accurate or not, but I am glad that we can help and have meaningful experience to be "blind". Seriously, you know how many persons attended this annual event?

Not to mention, there were a lot of attractive prizes for the participants. iPad, bicycles, laptops...In fact, in the point of organization participation, Penang Adventist Hospital fellows must be really blessed. Out of 33 participation, 4 received lucky draw prizes where we had Wei Beng, Andy, and Doreen who won the hamper.
Beng poising with his hamper

and Ryan Goh, our grand prize winner! \(⌒o⌒)/

4 days 3 nights Penang-Phuket/Krabi Start cruise tour for 2 persons. (Psss, I heard he hasn't found his partner...You know what to do, right? =P)

Anyhow, the event went like this. We walked blindfolded with someone leading in front...

or guided with someone who was not blindfold side-by-side...

Don't ask me what the lady was posing...

From youth park...

passing by the botanical garden...

and back to youth park where we were awarded with a certificate for our effort! Great job, pals. =)

Lastly, I would like to thank Jason and Grace for their unfailing effort to advertise Penang Adventist Hospital...

Jason, we miss you...

Grace never failed to show PAH signboard in almost any photos...

P/S: Guan, you did a great job! Without you, we won't have wonderful photos like these. Thanks!

Jesus said, "For judgment I have come into this world, so that the blind will see and those who see will become blind." ~ John 9:39

Tuesday, July 26, 2011


I attended a bible conference by RBC Ministries on 23rd July 2011, saturday in Trinity Methodist Church Penang with elder Ooi and fellow church mates. Met Kwei Yunn and Xu Wen (just knew that she attends this church =D). Besides, provides a reunion of brother and sister in Christ, our Heavenly Father taught me about forgiveness through the mouth of Reverent Dr. Gary Inrig.

Though I may not have photographic memory, these are some of the points which I recalled from his sermon:
(corresponding biblical chapters: * Luke 7:36 - 50, * Matthew 18:21 - 35, * Luke 17:1 - 10, & * Matthew 18-15 - 20)

~ The central principle of forgiveness is where creditor pays off debtor's debt (Jesus died on the cross for our sin)
~ Forgiveness creates love and comes with obligations such as forgiving others
~ Eternal forgiveness of God is not equal to parental/conditional forgiveness of God
~ Forgiveness is not minimizing sin
~ Forgive is not forget but remember to forget
~ To forgive, one has to define the offence and confront the person who offended us so that s/he knows how to repent.
~ Remorse = regret but not repent
~ Repent leads to change of life or direction of living
~ Forgiveness is not equal to the cancellation of sin consequences
~ Forgiveness is effective only to the relevant parties
~ Forgiveness needs faith because it is an act of will or permanent attitude
~ Forgiving is learning to forgive
~ Forgiveness is another offer for others/offender to believe (in Christ), repent and renew
~ In case we cannot forgive offender, we shall offer forgiveness to offender by surrendering this to God.
~ Process of forgive:
    1) Face the offence squarely
    2) Feel the hurt (as consequences of sin)
    3) Forgive (with faith)
    4) Renew

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