Thursday, November 13, 2008

Another strike of incubus

My younger sister was murdered by the gangsters when she was on his way home from school…

Dominated by the dismay and failure to protect my dear sister, I killed myself, leaving alone our mourning parents…

(“The Mourning Parents”, sculpture by German sculptress, Käthe Kollwitz, located at Vladslo German Cemetery)








Argh…why am I having nightmares recently? This time, I was so shocked by the dream that I woke up from sleep! The image was vivid compare to the previous episode which mentioned about driving in the dark…

Am I influenced by the examination? I am not stress.

What about your recent living condition? As good as vacation!

Longing for someone? I am going home and sure I miss my friends and family!

Wait a minute, what are those going to do with your nightmare?

Well, who cares? As long as I am still able to write it down here, I assume I may interpret recent dreams, someday in the future……

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

A Weird Dream

I had a dream during 0400 hours today.

Before the dream slipped off my mind, I decided to write it here, in the hope that I can interpret it when I can.

I went to one of my female friends house in the favour of borrowing a car from her. I can’t remember who she was, but I did recall that she replied my request by handing me a car key of an old model Toyota Crown, which is something like this:

It was in bad condition though. (in my dream)

Without wasting any time, I was heading to my destination with the still-functioning Crown. I wanted to visit a site in somewhere which I don’t remembered. She asked to come along and I say OK. She drove a brand new black Perodua Myvi which was similar with this:

By the time we departed, it was twilight. We took an hour to reach the site but the journey was proofed to be vain as the thing that I was looking for was no longer there. (can’t remember what was it)

Before the day came to the total darkness, we left with despair. The return trip was dark and the road was so narrow that it allowed only one car to travel along the lane. I tried to switch on the headlight but the nearly spoilt car disappointed me and so I called her who was driving behind me to switch on hers, so that I had a better visibility of the road. Unfortunately, she reported that her car was having the same problem, too. We ended up driving in the dark without the light.

After several minutes, we encountered a split road which was not existed by the time we were heading to the site. As I was driving in the front, I decided to head left which ended up as a dead end. I turned back and made a call just to signal her not to follow my path. Before she picked up the call, I saw a black car driving in opposite direction, with the headlight on, and the car was going to the right path as if the driver already knew that the path I chose was a dead end. It was exactly the car she drove because I can see the number plate clearly. But what about the headlight? Wasn't it spoiled? When I was on the her track, she accelerated her car and left in nowhere, leaving me behind, who was trying hard to find the way home in the dark…

(without the light…though…)

Dream analysis, is one of the therapeutic skills in psychoanalysis. Sometimes I doubt, does the manifest content of the dream like I have dreamt can possibly bring out the latent content of my dream. If it can, I guess I have to figure out several items within the dream:

  • Who is that woman?
  • Why did she want to follow along the trip?
  • Where is the site?
  • What am I searching for at the site?
  • Why did she cheat me on the headlight?
  • Why did she left me alone in the dark?

It isn’t the first time I dream about being cheated by woman. I remember the previous episode was, been conned to kill someone I know.

Can you read my dream? :)

Monday, October 27, 2008

Deepavali Vanakum

Happy Diwali to all of my Indian friends! (^o^)/
Today is a big day for them as the "Festival of Light” is celebrated for the victory of good over evil within every human kind, according to Indian legend.
First of all, I’ll like to thank Adam for bringing me all around the Sabah for today trip, along with one of his student in his language center who comes from Yokohama, Japan and studying International Sociology in Yokohama City University. She has being coming here for 3 months for her study trip to Malaysia to experience the festival atmosphere lively. (consequently she have to summit a paper for that) Finally, I have one Japanese friend! ^^
We started our day by visiting a local well-known Hinduism temple. (forget the name! >~<) We were welcomed to follow their praying ritual and one of Aiko Tomita’s objectives was achieved. The whole ritual took around an hour and I was surprised to know that Indian student of University Malaysia Sabah had applied for three buses to bring them here for the ritual! Off course I met some of my friends and they were surprised to see me here, too. ^^
After that, we went for the breakfast prepared by the temple officials. I missed Indian foods! >~< It has been a long time since I last ate Indian food, excluding the Roti Canai that we can get everyday. Besides that, it was my another dining experience with hands. That’s part of their traditions.
Having a walk around the temple is ideal after a meal as it is good for digestion and chances of schmoozing. I met a female Taiwan tourist and a retired French scientist who is residing in Sabah for several years. His name was John Paul (not sure whether I spelled it correctly) and studied a lot about Malaysia culture even though it was not his main expertise. He knew more about Deepavali than anyone of us and Aiko was lucky to meet him as we spent a great deal of time listening to his explanation about Malaysia festivals.
Next we moved on to Tanjung Aru for Kota Kinabalu Baptist Church Family Day. Nothing much to say about it as neither of us were enjoying in the activities. I was spending sometimes with the church fellows for some games while Aiko was indulging herself with the sea. Pastor Adam, which is more commonly referred by the church follower, was talking with some senior followers who were not participated in the games on the beach. Ah, missed another chance to talk with Radiance! *sad*
We headed to Likas Sport Complex for the Deepavali Open House by the Barisan National for free lunch. As expected for such event, there were a lot of people coming for the same purpose and Aiko was so full with Roti Canai. (she simply loved it!) Again, we met Mr. John and this time, Adam was starting another lengthy about current world situation with him. Me and Aiko was regretted for didn’t take any contact information from the knowledgeable old man. Suddenly, I felt so pathetic about myself in language skills. I speak fundamental Japanese, incoherent English, poor Malay, and superficial Mandarin, but Adam can speak fluent English, Singkh, French and little bit of Spanish while Aiko knows about French, Spanish, Mandarin, and Malay! Sigh…
As suggested by Aiko, we went to Kiansom Waterfall for a nature bath.

(Top of Kiansom Waterfall. Taken by Nokia E65 and shaky hand)

This was the most enjoyable part of our trip. The feeling of being flushed by the water was so relaxing after half day travelling around several places. Um…Ah…I was so indulged that I get this…

…minor injury by knocking some rocks. Auch! I was told off by someone about safety rules but it seemed that Andrew Koay is always against or forget about them when it comes to nature exploration.
Before we were returning to our home, we had simple tea break at Inanam. Aiko was so delight to share about her favourite Malaysia items while she was buying some batik sarung at nearby store. Since this was our last stop, we decided to call it a day with a tiring and fun experience.

Friday, October 10, 2008

World Mental Health Day

Does anyone today is the World Mental Health Day? What is World Mental Health Day?
"World Mental Health Day (October 10), is a day for global mental health education, awareness and advocacy. It was first celebrated in 1992 at the initiative of the World Federation for Mental Health, a global mental health organization with members and contacts in more than 150 countries."                 -Wikipedia
This year, the World Federation for Mental Health strive to "focus on where we came from and what needs to be done yet for the future. We will highlight different levels of advocacy and its role in creating change and the need for scaling up services so all people have access to information, personalized treatment, and resources to assist them in all aspects of their recovery," (World Federation for Mental Health, 2008)  by the theme "MAKING MENTAL HEALTH A GLOBAL PRIORITY: SCALING UP SERVICES THROUGH CITIZEN ADVOCACY AND ACTION."
From my own observation and reading, the public awareness in Malaysia is still low within the region. Public perception about mental health remains very superficial. In fact, for some of the older generation, mental health topics are taboo (as they attribute mental disorder as spiritual dismay). Therefore, there is a need to advocate and support this issues among the citizen for the sake of overall healthy development of any single human being.
You may think that this is irrelevant to our current situation, the global economic recession, but do you feel distress upon your helplessness in changing this condition? Do you know that few days ago, there is one gloomy incident in Los Angeles, United States of America where one man had killed himself after shooting all of his family members due to his family financial crisis.

Los Angeles County Coroners remove one of the six bodies found at a home in a gated community in the San Fernando Valley neighborhood of Porter Ranch area of Los Angeles on Monday, Oct. 6, 2008. (AP Photo/Damian Dovarganes)

This photo released Tuesday, Oct. 7, 2008, by the California Department of Motor Vehicles shows Karthik Rajaram. The 45-year-old unemployed financial manager, despondent over extreme money problems, was found dead Monday with a gun in his hand said authorities. He had shot and killed his wife, three children, mother-in-law and then himself at home in a gated community in the San Fernando Valley neighborhood of Porter Ranch in Los Angeles. (AP Photo/California Department of Motor Vehicles)

It is a shame for me, as one of the psychology student, doing nothing to contribute in this international campaign. Nevertheless, I tried to mention this in my blog, in the hope that my dear readers can help me in advocating the importance of mental health among your loved ones. ;)
(P/S: For those who are interested in World Mental Health Day 2008 campaign, you may have a look at the free material by the organization.)

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Badminton match

It has been a while since my last participation in any badminton competition. (in fact, I start to practice it since 2 weeks ago after half year break) As usual, for an intermediate players like me, I lost but I was satisfied as I did learn some from the match.

Well, I attended the badminton competition organized by Sabah Baptist Church this afternoon. The venue was not very ideal as the visibility inside the hall is poor due to the old lightning systems and the wall which consisted of endless holes...

Anyway, I did have a good match with several good players. (even though some of them were aunties! lol) There was one 14 years old national player playing and all of his family members were participated. Guess what, they are tough! I paired with his elder sister but our opponent was his mother and good friend. You may think that they were about the same level but my score for that match was 17-21...Experience does matter! I will like to thank my partner for her full attention on the match. (she did fall badly during the match just to save the shuttlecock >~<)

Despite my countless losing in all the participated competition, the experience acquired during the match is different from the normal practice. Owwu, how I wish I can improve my skills through the practice with those skill players whom I met today!

P/S: Aunt Dorris, you're lucky and proud of your family for having so many skilled children! ^^

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Is your food clean?

Recently there are a lots of news and controversy regarding melamine contaminated dairy products from China. Personally, I am not familiar with chemistry, but roughly from what I have read regarding this harmful chemical, the main consequences of over-intake is the production of kidney stone. I will like to warn my dear readers about this. Please be careful when you buy any imported food and read the food label before you purchase (it is another good consumer habit which is always being ignored) because the affected food is not only including milk products but currently, it also involves vegetables! Look at the news from Bernama:

KOTA KINABALU: The Health Ministry is now on high alert over melamine-tainted vegetables imported from China.
“We have learnt from South Korea that they have detected a high level of melamine in vegetables they import from China,” said Health Minister Datuk Liow Tiong Lai.
“We have launched a Level 4 check on all food products from China where we will take samples to ensure the products are safe for consumption before releasing them into the market,” he told reporters Saturday after attending the Sabah MCA convention here.
Liow assured that melamine-tainted food products in the country were at the permissible level of 2.5 parts per million (ppm), whilst baby products contained one ppm. 
- The Star Online, October 4th, 2008
Waw, no more safety for vegetarian? Well, a good warning for any vegetarian, including me. Frankly speaking, will this serves as one of the obstacles for World Vegetarian Awareness Month campaign by North American Vegetarian Society?
Anyway, it is time that China shall reexamine their product quality level, especially the food that we consume everyday and affects our health both in short term and long term.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Good bye, PAP UMS 2008...

I guess after the appreciation dinner, the Pesta Ang Pow (or Chinese New Year Night) University Malaysia Sabah 2008 has came to its end. The hard work and the joy that we have gone through has remained as part of our memory in UMS...
The Appreciation Dinner of PAP UMS 2008 was held yesterday at Le Meridien hotel (I heard it is a five star hotel) after gone through many obstacles. Every attended committee members makes up heavily than I don't remember meeting them, waw! For example, look at the picture below:

(Me, Grace and Doreen were standing while Yi Juan, Jenice, Yi Ming and Ai Xuan were sitting. They are my coursemates!)
Well, I know somebody will say this is just the normal dinner attire and make ups, why am I feeling so strange about it....I have a bad taste in fashion as you can see. If not, why am I wearing black T-shirt and black pants like one of the waiters in the hotel?
Anyway, for your information, I HATE FORMAL WEAR! That's why I never wear them during balls. Social deviant, am I?
The 8 set serving course dinner started around 2000 hours. I felt so lucky than anyone for eating 16 courses because I didn't see anybody other than me running around the tables and eating between tables...Gosh, how inconsiderable I was! I was sitting with Yi Juan and others at vegetarian table (there was two tables specially allocated for them, one of them was displayed in the picture above) before the dinner started. After the first course was served, I began to have some words with other members and eventually I ended up sitting and feasting with them...(>~<) At least I did not waste the foods...
Coming up next, the lucky draw that everybody is waiting for. 6 hampers, one 8GB USB Flash drive, one Canon iP1880 printer and one 160 GB external SATA hard-disk. As expected, I got nothing and neither my friends. Wish for better luck next time.
The dinner ended before 2200 hours (so fast...). Despite the school bus had stand by to bring them who stay in hostels back, no one seemed to stop taking shots from the beginning of the dinner...It was another chance for us to put on those beautiful attires and hair styles (except me who remain unchanged all the while...) so who will save their memory storage? Anyway, everybody was able to back to their respective hostel or home safely after they had satisfied and running out of memory and battery, hehe. Here are some pictures that include me!

Me, Grace, Dr Amrad Ahmed (a great Assistant Vice Chancellor who can cook well, speak Japanese and remains single!) and Doreen.

Grace, me and Doreen, one of a long term teams in counselling psychology course of UMS!

P/S: thanks Grace & May for the photos! ^^

Saturday, September 20, 2008

An expensive lunch

Guess how much does this dish cost?
RM4? RM4.50? RM5?
These are the acceptable price range to us, the West Penisularian, well, I guess some Sabahans too. But this meal was not included in that range, instead it cost me RM7.50!!! (O.o"")
I took my lunch in KK Plaza before I did my shopping with Kar Fei (purchased our "surviving stocks"). First of all, I rejected other choices in food court as those dishes cost around RM5 and they were worth that for me (even though that may be acceptable for local). Nevertheless I preferred economic rice. Well, the meal ended up as "non-economic". I was astounded when I saw the cash register machine displayed "RM7.50"! No choice, I had to pay for it as there was no way to reject this dish.
Rice + fried long beans + fried egg with long beans + fish balls + fish cakes = RM7.50? That's expensive! Until now I still have not had any clue that this dish cost so much.
No wonder, some say that the economy in Sabah is hard to change as the economic gap is enormous. Look at the food price or any product price index, it seems that the poor is struggling to survive while the rich will maintain as wealthy.

Sunday, September 14, 2008

The most satisfied Mid-Autumn Festival ever!

Never being so contented whenever I mention about Mid-autumn festival... But for this year, I felt so great about the celebration of this traditional festival... Well, at least I have eaten almost 10+ mooncakes in 3 days... Frankly speaking, I have never eaten so many before due to my background...

I started off from the invitation from Adam to attend the church celebration on last Saturday. Instead of eating bunch of mooncakes, I ended up eating more spaghetti than mooncakes as our late arrival. (Well, I don't blame him) Anyway, I had a goodtimes with them for the whole night, thanks Adam!

On the next day, invitation from an auntie known in Sabah (whose restaurant is full of delicious vegetarian meals ^^) to be presented. This time, it is the celebration of Tsu Chi. First time attending their activity made me felt anxious about the organisation. Met some Chung Ling juniors and we had a great night together! (of course not without those mooncakes) The moment where we solved the riddles, ate various kinds of mooncakes, (ranging from pudding, ice-layered, chocolate, dragon fruit, traditional lotus paste with single york, etc...sorry guys, I don't have camera...), fooling around with the lanterns and winning ourselves a CD from Tsu Chi, remain as a memorable piece in my mind. Thanks auntie, Wooi Keat, Pei Shi and Steven!

The last celebration went to Chung Ling Alumni celebration dinner for the festival and the carnival. Nothing particular except the long conversation with the 5th year Medicine senior (She is pretty!) and received a piece of mooncake and a box of pandan cake for lucky draw.

The quantity of consumed mooncakes isn't the sole reason that made me happy, but the chance to recognize new friends also allowed me to indulge in those celebration. Met a 4th year education female Penangite and the mysterious 5th year female future paediatrics specialist, so lucky! Again, I will like to thank Adam, Aunt Wu, Steven, Wooi Keat, Pei Shi and other Chung Ling guys for sharing the joy together!

Saturday, August 23, 2008


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